Didn’t expect that this day would be so.. fugly. Sigh. Didn’t pass for the second time around. I think this isn’t really for me but my mom won’t listen. How stubborn of her. She will eventually regret this in the coming days.
I still can’t understand how the hell that happened. Damn. I just wasted my whole summer studying for this fucking shit. The fact that I actually studied for this. Fucker. Well, this proves my theory. Studying hard for something actually makes me fail (well, this is only applicable to exams that will change my life forever).
I still feel awful. I actually don’t know what I should do right now. Well, it’s time to look for a new career path.
I feel worse than before because it was a whole lot easier than before. Now, I still can’t grasp the idea of not passing for the second time. Hmph. Then again, they only get the best yet they’re not the best. How ironic. Stupid bitches. Yeah, you might say I’m a bit bitter and I am.
I regret taking up this fucking course. I regret wasting a year of my life. I regret wasting money. I regret every fucking thing. If I only had a course in mind then, this wouldn’t have happened.
I am just pissed to the nth level.
9:07 pm
Today, I answered my final reviewer for tomorrow. I am extremely stressed and worried at the same time. I don’t even know what I’m feeling right now. Maybe I’m just anxious or something. I don’t know if the reason is the exam or Jonghyun’s comeback (ㅎㅅㅎ). Since then, I’ve started thinking that I shall pass. Never thinking about the other possibilities. My mom said that I’ll transfer schools if I don’t pass again but I don’t want too. I mean, come on, when I’ve finally grasped the idea that I’m in La Salle.
I think she should think about what WE want not what she wants. She’s very annoying these past few days. Also, I will seriously throw a hissy fit if she starts on complaining that I didn’t study hard blah blah. Oh shut the fuck up. You don’t know how hard it was to study during summer. I tried my best and you should seriously appreciate that. There’s no use in complaining. You’re complaining won’t change anything.
Anyway, I’m seriously pooped and I don’t know if I can answer anything tomorrow. I’m hoping and praying that I pass this time around ‘cause it would be a complete and utter failure if I didn’t.
Adieu~ I should get back to studying. 화이팅!
9:56 pm
Answered 8 questions correctly in the problem solving part of my practice ^^ A bit happy since it’s already a lot for me. I’m actually aiming to perfect the theory part of the exam but I think that’s a bit unrealistic of me since that only happened once or twice in all of my accounting subjects. Hahaha. Anyway, I’m still remembering how to solve the shitty dividend. Gahd. Every basic accounting subject there’s a topic that I seriously hate. I also forgot how to make the SOCIETY (yeah, we use acronyms too. Lol). I’m gonna die tomorrow.
Actually, my body tells me to sleep already but noo. Stupid insomnia. I have been sleeping at 3-4 in the morning for the past few days all because of fucking insomnia.
I’m just typing random thoughts just to get everything out before I start panicking tomorrow and eventually forget what I’ve studied and think about other things, i.e. SHINee. Damn.
10:09 pm
Listening to Jonghyun’s version of As Long As You Love Me. Deyumm boy. His version is much better than the original. Wahahaha. ❤❤❤
The system sucks.
I’m talking about how they decide on who should stay or go in my course. I mean, it’s pretty reasonable to do such thing but I think it’s unfair in some aspects. They only get the best of the best. What if in the end, there’s no more? I think that they aren’t thinking much about it. I know they have been doing it for like idk how many years already but, if failing the exam two times gets you the boot then, I’d rather not have taken up the course in the first place. Failing the two tries is like hell since you just wasted a year of your life and money too.
This may be a little biased since I already failed my first take but the hell with it. I’ll admit that I never really liked my course but over time I actually thought it was nice.
Fuck it with this system.
“나의 기쁨이 너에게 행복이 된다면, 고마워.” ❤ #SHAWOL4EVER wahahaha
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떡볶이~
